This really makes me feel like a horrible person, but it's true, so I might as well admit it: Part of the reason I would want to adopt an older child if I decided to have children is that I'd be really afraid I'd have a kid like Soonhyeon. Soonhyeon is a crier. I mean, not like a sweet, overly-sensitive crier. But a whiny, bitch-ass crier. Soonhyeon continuously starts shit with the other students because they say something off the cuff and he decides it needs to be an issue. And then he won't shut the fuck up about it until the other kid yells at him to just let it go. And then he cries.
Like today, when he came in and I asked him what he did yesterday, he answered that he had studied hard. Minjae cracked a joke that he was a liar. Soonhyeon kicked off. He was not a liar. He had studied hard yesterday. How could Minjae know what he had done yesterday? He didn't even talk to Minjae yesterday.
Minjae: Yeah whatever. It was a joke. Forget it.
Soonhyeon: It's not right to call someone a liar when you don't even know if they are lying or not. I studied at hagwon all day yesterday and then I went to the library afterward. I'm not a liar. I don't tell lies. You can't say that I'm a liar. How would you even know?
Minjae: Seriously? I said it was a joke. Let it go.
Soonhyeon: But you can't just call someone a liar like that! You don't know anything about it! I AM NOT A LIAR!
Minjae: Just shut up!
He's like this every day. Another pressing issue that arose today that he wouldn't shut the fuck up about was the fact that the electric kettle was on the table in front of him, and, therefore, he had slightly less space to write in than the other students. Instead of just moving the kettle forward a bit, he harrassed Minjae endlessly, endlessly to move over and give him more space, because it wasn't fair.
I have a lot of patience for a lot of different personality types in kids. I have a lot of tolerance and understanding for a lot of behavior I come across. This. This is the one thing I cannot deal with. If I had a kid that behaved like Soonhyeon, I would fucking destroy him. Not on purpose. I would tell myself over and over that, somehow, he can't help it. But it wouldn't work all of the time. It's barely been getting me through the two hours a day I've been spending with him for the last two weeks.
No. I need to adopt. Because, first of all, being pregnant and giving birth are two experiences I really don't feel the need to have. At all. But also because me and a whimpy kid would not stand a chance together. I'll just snatch one up who has a thing for fire or knives or something. That would be manageable.