6.17.2010

That man suffered more in one lifetime than anybody has a right to. But he was also one of the most childishly joyful people I ever had the privilege of knowing. He built a beautiful family and brought them up in a spirit of love that he never had anyone teach him how to make. He never judged anybody, least of all any of us. And we fought so hard for his life, so many times. In a way, because most of us are so different from him, that fighting back was the only way we had to return the love he had given us.

There's a reason why I was here and not there. And if there isn't, then I'll fucking make one. I'll give him something to be proud of, something to show him that it wasn't in vain.

16 comments:

wakenda said...

My heart goes out to you right now.

Whiskey Tango Foxtrot said...

we're here

saharial said...

*hugs* I know words are ineffective right now, but just letting you know I hear ya.

Mr Nameless said...

My heart goes out to you and your family, Liz.

x

Anonymous said...

This makes me sad. I'm sorry hun. *hugs* He will always love you like you love him - forever.

::sad face::

-heather

Diana E.S. said...

You are beautiful, Liz. I'm sorry to hear about your loss. I am absolutely sure he knew how much you loved him and was extraordinarily proud of you.

Kel said...

<3 <3 <3

Anonymous said...

he will always live here and in all of your readers' hearts. keep writing.

Tuttle said...

I am sorry for your loss.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss. I know it must be difficult to be away right now, but if there is anything we (us readers) can do, please don't hesitate.

Burndog said...

I'm sorry. I lost my dear old Dad ten years ago this week...so i really feel for you. Being here or there doesn't matter so much at the beginning or the end...the key is to have been there at some point in the middle...and you were.

Laura. said...

Death ends a life, but it does not end a relationship. For what it is worth, my heart is with you at the moment.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss. My grandfather passed away when I was overseas too...I really respect and admire your strength and the love you have for him, and him for you. My heart goes out to you.

Moriya

Anonymous said...

I know that this is a sad post, but: Damn right. A man's legacy, his posterity, his success is measurable in the temperament and worth of his charges. If what you're doing makes you a better person and improves your station in life, materially or otherwise, then you honor all of those who contributed to your growth.

I'm glad to see that you're of the right mind.

--.38

I'm no Picasso said...

It's really incredible to see all of these kind words here, some from people I've known for ages and some from people who I haven't even met. Thank you to all of you.

And Spesh, you especially have managed to say the one thing that's given my heart a little strength in all of this. Shit like that's why I think you're so old.

Anonymous said...

You already did, ELizabeth. No papa ever had more to be proud of in a grandchild.

We love you.
We carried you with us today.

Just as the services started a thunderstorm rolled through. By the time we got home it had ended.

Papa raising hell one last time.

I love you, Elizabeth.

Mom.